Righttt, dear diary, this would be a new version of how i would express my thoughts. why the new blog? why the need for it? well, lets just say, i am embracing changes and i would like to have a freer blog? hehe.
okay, news flash of whats happening now.
A is completely in love with B. B shows the similar amount of affection like he used to but somehow both of them are not acknowledging anything.
A feels she wants to get married and would really like to have a steady boyfriend by now, but B is making it hard for her. A would really like to move on if B doesnt love her but B is being very safe right now and everyday B is making A fall for him even more which is bad for A because it totally interferes with her plan of finding her soulmate.
of course finding your soulmate is never easy but some people find it so easy dont they? arent they lucky? actually it is a simple thing if one really think and look at it. if you like someone, tell them, and see if they like you back. if it hits, it hits and booyahhh you can get married. if the other person doesnt respond the way you want them to, leave them and movee onnnnnn, why stayyyyy???
thats the thing. isnt it simple? and people who go by these rules, they are happy and i see they are making families right now. i want to do that too. i know the simple rule and i think it is a rule everyone wishes to abide, but somehow, in some way, i dont know, it is not happening to me. yea, i like the guy, but noooo, my parents disagreee. i like the guy, but nooo he has a kid and he is older than you, which i dont have a problem withhhh. i like the guy, and heyyy he is of a complex nature which gives off the impression that he doesnt love me but actually i know deep down inside, he does but in that complex brain of hissss, he just wont make love easy which is really a headache and really stupid when you think of it. love is supposed to be easy people say but yet again, ive also read, true love is never easy, its called true love for a reason. if its too easy, where is the challenge, what makes it true if everything is easy for you? this is what happens when you read and watch movies a lot. you get your philosophies confused...and you ended up not knowing which way to decide. oh the more you know the more confused you are. how can one be so sureeee??
well, one thing i know that is for sure is that, i am notttttt Notttt Nottttt ever gonna marry for Moneyyyyyy!!! i dont want to! i sooo dont want to! sure money will make me happy, no doubt! i can buy a hundred books with money and that will make me happy but honestly,,,,,,,,,,i am not gonna marry for money!!! doesnt matter if that guy owns a gold mine or something but if i dont like and love him, or be sure or convinced or imagine i could live with him , i cantttttt!!! it is one thing i am not willing to sacrifice!!! im sorryyyy! i knoww its a violation of the girls code nowadays. good guys with money is hard to find, and i may seem picky but......how can i marry someone if i am not convinced that i could love him back and make him happy. i dont think i can do that. i honestly dont.
this first post is really all over the place eh haha well this is the vocal me and i ramble things without certain order sometimes and it's kinda fun too i must admit. okay then, gotta go. maybe ill catch up later. this is like a rambling box instead of a proper one haha. ok ciaoooo!!!
xoxoxoxooxoxox
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